Just when you think you have life figured out, it throws more lemons at you. I had finally gotten to the point where I was consistently going to practice and watching my skills steadily improve, and then in February it happened. I was thrown by one of our less experienced players, but it was a bit off-balance and even though I was able to to take a good breakfall on the throw, my Partner (who had a fair amount of weight on me) lost his balance and landed directly on top of my shoulder. In the mirror the next morning, it looked as if someone had implanted a grapefruit underneath the skin of my right shoulder. I figured I would give it a couple of days to heal before seeing a Doctor, but it definitely hurt and it was hard to use my hand for the first few days.
Of course, two days later, on Friday, as my physical pain was slowly melting away, my emotional pain exploded. You see, that was the day that my mother was diagnosed with Actue Mylogenous Leukemia - AML. Suddenly the pain in my should didn't matter. Nothing mattered except my mom. Mom put up a good fight, but after two months and several rounds of chemotherapy, she succumbed to her cancer and passed away towards the end of April.
Regardless of the emotional pain, there is also the functional responsibilities that come with losing a parent, which have unfortunately caused me to have to give up Judo in the short term - at least until I sort some things out.
At least I can still blog :(
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