I mentioned this to a colleague yesterday. He asked where the tournament was, I said in Brooklyn. He asked me to get him the details when the time came so he could be there to root me on. He started to boost my confidence.
I think maybe when I was in college, I thought too much about not losing to ever think of winning. In addition, while my Sensei and teammates were very supportive, I didn't get that much support outside of Judo. I think that as long as I stay Injury-free and don't compete more than a handful of times a year, my wife will be supportive and so will my boys.
I guess I just need to stay positively focused for the next few weeks as I gear up for the tourney, and Maybe I will produce results.